your chapters done...

i should have been mad from the beginning
cussed you and cursed you
but then i would never get that chance to smile in your face when you realize how much of the shit i really am
i should cry but my tears and i had a signed agreement that first night you showed your ass.
maybe find the one after me and try warn her, but hey we both know she is nothing like me.
maybe you should complement me, instead of complicate shit for me.
convince me instead of trying to control me
I'm a revolutionary women, you cant shut me up...move in, kiss me, make these fingers only wanna write sweet of you
move up, step up, maybe you should stop your excuses they have too many holes
oh yea u looking for something better, i think she went right and around the corner. if you hurry you may catch her...oh wait, there she goes off running now, maybe if you scream she'll turn around.
she does. u walk up to her just before her tears completely dry, u feed her some bullshit n sprinkle some game on it,she walks with you for a while, turns and runs...I'm not slowing down, not looking back.
fake preacher in a pool pit, an average nigga, doing average nigga shit...

this hip hop inspired stride, the turn up of my lips, created by years of finger sucking, bohemian, soft, sweet caramel skinned, long sisterly locks down her up lifted neck, mind in the sky, eyes sexy and devilish to lie in the face of death..skilled, gifted...easy, straight, i sit at the back of this plastic infested society of your opposite, standing out, not saying a word..
i counted the broken pieces of my heart, drowning in a pool of my tears...flooding all average...
i sat this out for a long time it must be I'm not living up to my full potential...

you are just the idea i have stuck in my head, that's not your fault, I'm not a victim you just happened to be something that i wanted to commit with after all your shit that i was willing to look past
you said you wanted to do this right, all the way...u fucked up
i didn't buy it...i just didn't want some other bitch to get you.
i had a dream about u last night, it was the closest to reality, but not once did i think it was real..
i cant be average, my dreams have never been...

i didn't know how deep i was cut until i started to bleed, but nothing was written in stone and you never put your name on it

i picked this average shopping isle, i need to get out of, guys acting like boys but still wanna be called men.
million things to lose n not a single to gain.
i went crazy with though, convinced my self otherwise.

i know u know I'm hurting, I'm not gonna throw it in your face, not even trying to shake it all around for you..i wish you the best, hope as smart as u claim to be, u do know n not let it kill you that IT DON'T GET NO BETTER!

and all that for a nigga that was average doing average nigga shit!

and your book is closed


Gino Obuseng