Wednesday, July 27, 2011

A Letter Of Apology To My Soul

I put you through a lot
I shook you, I tested you
I even stood by while you choked, leaned on the door while you got robbed
I let you lay on a cold floor, bruised
I cut off all the water while u danced around, on fire
I ignored yr cries; I held my breath and thought it all a dream

But this was all after I swung you around flaunting you, thinking you invincible and laying you on the table like a pack of smokes for everyone to bum off.

This is all before the hurts came in, I started disbelieving in you, and how dare I not trust you?

This happens when i realized I must stop, drop and roll, instead of running through this field of thorns disguised as roses.

I put you through a lot
I lost you, I found you
I even put you through a never ending maze just to have a laugh
I let you lay your head in hell, exhausted
I lied about the weather and let you go off in the cold.
I left out all the snakes in the stories I told

But this was way before I realized how strong you were, this was when I put all the tests of the world that I got on you. This was when I forgot we were in this together.
This was way after I had ever thought to alternate between us. This was when I lost my mind. This was after my tank E light lit.


At this time, as I stand before this mirror and after stripping all the bullshit away.
After sweeping the ash away, before shedding this skin I say to you; I am sorry, please forgive me.


Gino Obuseng

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