Sunday, May 18, 2008

part II: losing it

part of me wondered how it was
to feel you everywhere i go
carried you in my soul.
i'm glad i wont have to go through that with you,
for you.

the key to 'acting' tough is not hard to find.
this addiction i acquired, this feeling of being torn away, i sit and know, hope it will go away,
listening, watching, inspired, rooted, crazy, crying, keeping it together until now everything in me is screaming for help.

i wanna be mad as hell, scream my lungs out, cry my eyes out,
i wondered what it would feel like to try and re-build your smile.
there was a part of me that wouldn't wait to tell you, to try and spark a miracle.

but tell me, is everything that you thought and said what you saw when you looked at me?

i want the strength that was said to have been given to women, i re-enact it everyday hoping it would be routine.
that my body would learn habit
to feel the right to say i want you
to help me get over you.
i think of the next to be like a friend,
but still i miss you. i've been hurt.
even though you almost destroyed it u know i still have a heart.




Gino Obuseng

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